In psychology today we were doing about the influence of cognition’s on physiology so for an example we did a 5 minute meditation session. I decided to actually try I mean I realise I need to change the way I think and act and am generally it is just difficult. I regret this decision, everyone was doing this normally so was I until tears started welling up in my eyes, I started crying, I think the teacher may have noticed because a look she gave me but I think I managed to hide it from everyone else… I regret it so much she is a teacher I haven’t had for very long and she is actually half decent I don’t want her to be on my case and I don’t want anyone to notice, I want to be seen as at least relatively normal. I don’t even know anymore…. what the fuck is wrong with me am I that emotionally screwed up I can’t even keep it together in public anymore. I hope nobody saw me.